Diana Banana Pancakes

November 12, 2008

Lost my blogging mojo…PICS AT THE END of the long post

Filed under: family,Ian,random — dianabananapancakes @ 9:49 pm

I lost my blogging mojo. I used to have regular readers, but with changes in my web site due to certain people finding my site that I didn’t want them to find it, I changed the name and addy to my blog many times and lost people each time. Now I no longer have regular followers, so I haven’t felt the need to keep up with blogging.

But, lately I’ve had need to vent, so I will do so…

WORK – SUCKS ASS! I have done transcription for 13 years, right out of college. Its done well to support my family of me and my son, and even when I was married it worked out so great for me, I was able to be a stay-at-home mom and support my son and I for years, but its gotten harder and harder to make the same amount of lines as the small company I originally worked for was purchased by another company and then another big company which is who owns it now. That company has recently changed majority share holders, and now it is owned by a company in India and the troubles have started and I’m working now less than minimum wage for a job I used to bring home $1600+ AFTER taxes and AFTER health benefits a month 10 years ago to now less than minimum wage in the last month. I’m job hunting again, but afraid I will no longer be able to work at home. I need health insurance because I haven’t been able to afford it through the last 5 years when they were purchased by the bigger company. We are suddenly as of Oct. 15th left in the dark, work pool low and not consistent, and I no longer can depend on this job. I hope to find something in the transcription field, but am getting this urge to go back to school and look for something better.

CELL PHONE – someone stole my new cell, motorola RAZR, I only had it 2 months, had some pics of Ian and I and some video of us on there, someone has that, and has listened to my voicemail, and itmakes me oddly feel violated in that way, someone has personal texts of mine, someone has listened to my personal voicemail and has pics of my son and I and phone numbers of people in my life…and the used my cell to go online, 198.00 of data usage and 99.77 of downloads! Thankfully I have AT&T and talked to them as soon as I knew it was missing, they waived my charges thank goodness! I didn’t have insurance and can’t afford a brand new phone right now as my job is shitty as mentioned above, so I’m using a very old, crappy phone, but at least I have phone service again.

LOVE LIFE – is nonexistent. I am seeing someone, have been seeing someone since the last day of Feb. 2008. He is a great guy. I met him in October and over time of getting to know him have really come to like him and care about him. We have seen each other only once a week for most of that time, but in the last 2 months its been reduced to once a month due to work schedule changes and the fact that we live a little over an hour apart. I really like him, though met him in odd circumstances and it involves his friend, who I never dated, but his friend was a FWB of mine for a while, no interest in dating, but this guy I have been spending time with and talking nearly every day I DO have an interest in dating. A few months into it, he said he thought we were dating, so I went with it because I liked him. I still like him, but as things changed (my not having a sitter anymore as my ex-husband decided to disappear from his son’s life AGAIN) and then work schedules and he has always said from the beginning that the distance is an issue. Now 8-1/2 months later its changed from “i thought we were dating” from him to now him saying he doesn’t know what he wants, that the distance is an issue, but he doesn’t know what he is doing with me or what he wants, and he admits to having guilt over the fact that I was his buddy’s FWB, even though I never dated his FWB, while he also admitted a few months ago that if I lived closer he would be over every day if I let him. So, I don’t know what to make of it and i’m sure me being a single parent is an issue as well though he says it is not, he has not met my son and that is my choice until I know we will be a couple, but he admits to not knowing how to deal with kids. He has never been married and has no kids.

IAN – is doing great in school academically, but he has had some behavioral issues of talking and being disruptive, which I figure partially has to do with his father suddenly disappearing this summer again, he has not seen his dad since Father’s day, and his dad has only called him 2 times since then, and then the last time he talked to his dad was 1-1/2 weeks ago on a Monday, his dad told him that he was going to come see him on friday, and he told me the same thing that he was going to see Ian on friday…HE NEVER SHOWED UP. He hasn’t called since. This is how he’s been off and on and now Ian is old enough that it upsets him. He told me “I’m mad at my dad” and I asked why and he said “because he lied to me.” So, its irritating and hurtful to see him acting out because of his loser dad.

EYE CANDY – I just was introduced to some new eye candy in town. I’ve checked out this single dad for a few years, and he’s a really nice guy, but no way he would want to date a girl like me. There are more single women than men in this area, at least less single men who are worth grabbing, who have jobs and are not low-lifes or dead-beats, who are actually responsible and part of their kid’s lives, etc…very few choices here for women in this small town, but the men here have their pick and choose it seems. Well, I was introduced to a new piece of eye candy at a gaming center here in town that just opened. Turns out my step-mom knows him, ha. He used to do computer networking for the small company she works at and that she is friends with him, which I never knew, and so he and I chatted while my kiddo played games at his new gaming center (online video games). He is HOT, and very nice.

Ok, thought I’d share some pics with more to come!

Sunny LOVES strawberries!

First day of school – 2nd grade

go-cart racing – last day of summer spent at the Family Fun Center Grand Prix in South Charleston WV. He had a great time.

Trying something new – I spend way too much money on Ian for little crap that he doesn’t need, so I’ve decided at age 7 he’s old enough to start a chore chart and earning some allowance, this way it curbs my spending on him for little things here and there, and he learns to save up his money when he wants to get something. So far its done pretty well, he will still ask me for stuff here and there, but not as often and usually he says “I can get that in a month!” he’s loving the checking things off the list…

This little thing is one of those sticky things you can get out of the quarter machines at the front of stores, its about 1 inch big, its been on this wall for 3 months and counting, haha…

This is Mr. Turtle, Ian got him in Hawaii from his Hawaii Grandmama, its a sea turtle. He has him in his bed every night to sleep, and now his chore list includes making his bed, and this is what he does with Mr. Turtle every morning.

09/2008 – my dog had to have a procedure, poor guy, he was knocked out with anesthesia and pain meds, was on antibiotics, but now I’m happy to report he has made a complete recovery and is doing great!

09/2008 – tons of motorcycles, its hard to see, but they go WAAAAY back to where the men at the end are standing, there were at least 60+ motorcycles! It was so neat to see, they stopped in our small town for a break. Sorry for the bad pic, its from my cell phone, the one that was STOLEN 2 weeks ago. sigh.
tons of motorcycles

Sunny our puppy, looking out the window like he usually does while waiting in the car-line to pick up kids from school. I swear this is one of Sunny’s favorite parts of the day, he gets so excited when I say “lets go get Ian” haha.
Waiting for Ian

10/2008 – double rainbow driving out of our small town.
double rainbow 09-2008

Kiddo with his new halloween costume! He is a Clone Trooper, not a storm trooper, I have already been educated on this fact. He is “Commander Fox” from the Star Wars clone wars animated movie. He loves it so much he still wears it around and plays clone wars!
Halloween costume 2008

I’ll post more as I have posted a ton already!! catching up since August, so I will soon post more October and starting this month of pics! whew! Enjoy!


August 31, 2008

pics, pics, pics….

Filed under: family,Ian,random — dianabananapancakes @ 11:15 pm

I haven’t posted in a long time, I’m not even sure who if anyone reads this blog anymore…but I will post pics anyway….

Here goes!  there are a ton of them!

Making sushi!  I was craving it so bad, and mom sent me the stuff to make it from Hawaii, so I went at it!

The final product…tons of sushi! lol

4th of July 2008 with the family…
my sister and her boyfriend

Aside from my big chunky belly, I love this pic of Sunny!

We had a memorial for my grandpa, and the neighboring camp had also lost a family member around the same time, so we had a joint memorial for both…

We tossed flower petals that were taken from the funeral flower arrangements,its hard to tell but those are the flower petals in the river…

FINALLY – the pics to my cousin Debra’s wedding to her man Joe! They got married July 12, 2008. It was a fun, beautiful wedding that she put together. She was so beautiful as usual, she’s one of the sweetest people I know….aside from me of course! haha….here’s her wedding pics via my camera –

The men from the wedding party –
the men

My uncle and beautiful cousin

“Kiss the bride” shot

The new Mr. and Mrs.

Cake time.

Oh yes they did!

awwww, they even cleaned each other up! teehee

Little photographer…My cousin’s son, who was 7 at the time of this wedding, is going to be 8 in September, he was so friggin adorable with the camera and all up in the wedding shot taking! I loved it!

First dance as husband and wife

My dad and step-mom dancing

My sis didn’t get much sleep the night before, so she kept falling asleep, hahahahaha, I was so messing with her!

They had karaoke, which actually went over pretty well…even Ian and my cousin’s son went in on it! They had fun doing it, too.

Their photographer, Rachel B., ROCKED! Not to mention she had a wicked cool camera bag! haha, she was very nice and even responded to me online when I had comments to her blog….here’s the pics from her awesome photographer view, she is a great photographer and love her work so much I keep checking her blog for stuff not even related to my cousin. 🙂

Debra and Joe’s engagement shots which ROCKED, they are SO FUN!! I can’t say enough how much I love these pics!! My faves are the one with the blue wall, and the ones laying in the grass.

The wedding shots by Rachel B. Ian even made it into a shot on her blog, teehee….I love the pic she caught of him!

November 26, 2007

Blogging catch up…with TONS of pics….

Filed under: family,videos — dianabananapancakes @ 3:16 pm

I can’t believe its been over a week since I’ve blogged! Aside from some more drama from that “friend” that is no longer in my life (if there was any chance of saving that friendship, its gone now, and that’s fine by me)….the rest of the time was a great week.

I got my laptop back, yippie!!

Been working on some crafting stuff, I can’t put a lot of it on here as I’m not sure if my sister Bobbi will read my blog, haha….I’ll put some stuff on here when I get them done.

My sister Bobbi has moved up to Northern California. She is living now with her new boyfriend and one of his good friends, and she is SO FRIGGIN HAPPY its unreal! I’m SO PROUD of her and how far she’s come! Remember this time last year I couldn’t even FIND her, she was stuck with that loser guy (she calls him the useless wonder) that pretty much had her trapped in a bad situation, and she lost all contact with everyone and I was scared to death, remember? Well, January of this year she moved to California to start over, and now has come so far since then. I’m so proud and happy for her. She deserves this happiness she’s feeling and has worked hard to get there! She’s been friends with this current boyfriend for I think she said 4 or so years, so that’s a good change from the other relationships she’s had. I’ve known this new boyfriend of hers through online chats for about 2-1/2 years now. I have high hopes for this one, and feel relieved she’s with someone like him.

Spent thanksgiving with my dad, step-mom, sister and her boyfriend, and of course Ian and I….but forgot to take mycamera! DUH…ME? Forget my CAMERA? yep, guilty as charged….bah! haha

Friday Ian’s cub scouties were in the small town holiday parade. they decorated a truck trailer with a tree and lights and tinsel, set up a tent, and the kids had a blast being IN the parade instead of just watching it, Ian said it was so cool being in the parade and I’m glad he had a blast!

Saturday we cleaned the living room to get ready for Christmas decorations. We’re hoping to get that stuff up and done by next weekend so we can just relax and enjoy the twinkling lights and not have to do anything on the weekend..that’s my goal. Ian did so great with helping me clean, very proud of him.

Sunday!!! Sunday I took Ian to his dad’s for a few hours while I did a little window shopping for Ian, then I picked Ian up and went to meet BEKAH! Yep, met Bekah and her son David, on their way home back to NY!! It was so cool to finally meet her! Bekah is someone I’d known online for a couple of years, met through the blogosphere, and she e-mailed me one day last week and discovered the route she was driving would pass by an hour from where I live, so she said no way we can be that close and NOT meet, I agreed and it was set. Got to meet, see her great scrapbooks and take some pics. It was so great to finally meet her!!! YAY!!! Definitely gonna do it again!

So, with all that, here are tons of pics of all the stuff I mentioned above, and some others that have had to wait because of my laptop being gone….

Trying to put these pics in order by date, lol…here goes…

Sitting under the tree with the leaves changing color – 10-2007
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Ian playing in the fall leaves 10-2007
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Pumpkin carving – 10-2007
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The finished product, Ian did everything except the teeth
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Ian’s school has a halloween costume parade – he’s darth vader lol – 10-30-2007
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Ian LOVES writing and if he finds something to write on, he will. I have random sentences all over my apartment on boxes, post-its, my paper at my desk, the back of my birthday cards I had on the table, haha…he’s a writer like his mommy! lol
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He wrote this, his explanation was that he is not a mack daddy because he’s not a dad, so he’s a mack baby, hahahaha…why he even thought of mack baby at all is beyond me. Like I said, I have random sentences all over the place, from things he wrote that I said, to his own random thoughts, to stuff he’ll hear on TV
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Ian lost his 2nd tooth – 11-13-07
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Still wearing flip-flops in 43 degree weather….I’m in denial!! I miss Hawaii
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Cub scouts decorating their “float” for the holiday parade – Ian’s the one with his arms out
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In the actual parade, Ian’s the one with the white hood and the tan/black jacket toward the right of the picture.
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“video” from the parade hehe

Finally meeting Bekah and David! Ian was in front of the black mesh, David was behind it
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Ian took this pic of David, Bekah and me (finally, he kept goofing with the camera, haha) – 11-15-07
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and HA, she stuck her tongue out, so its going on the blog! hahaha, Bekah! Great meeting ya girlie! Maybe some time we can do this again and have more time! 🙂
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And that my friends is the END of this blog entry! whew! Tired yet?

May 15, 2007

PHOTO HEAVY sorry…hehe

Filed under: family,Ian,videos — dianabananapancakes @ 1:43 pm

May 10, 2007

Still not feeling myself

Filed under: family — dianabananapancakes @ 1:57 pm

I’m still having lots going on, still not feeling up to much typing. Have a lot going on. James and I are in this wierd place, we aren’t together, but don’t want to let each other go, very strange place to be. I think he’s more confused than me, and he’s the one who isn’t sure what to do. I think it all just moved so fast that he got spooked, among other things going on in both of our lives. So, hopefully time will fix it. I’m trying to go by the if its meant to be it will work itself out type of thing. No James bashing, he’s a good guy.

Car is still steadily dying, not sure what it will take to fix it, I still have to get it looked at, and have to do it this month, with car inspection looming by the end of the month…gah!

With all the things going on in my head, my light at the end of the tunnel is my trip to Hawaii. I can’t wait, it can’t get here soon enough, and I know it will fly by. Dad and I keep checking out web sites, he’s as excited as I am. Ian is excited too. He thinks he is gonna learn to surf, but he has to know how to swim first, and he doesn’t yet. So hopefully pool here in town will be fixed this year and he’ll be able to get some learning in before our trip. Last year it was closed all summer long and I worked out of town so we never got to make it to the pool, and the year before that there was no classes, the year before that he was considered too young. I’m hoping he will get to learn a little. Already have a list of stuff I want to take him to, mostly places I went as a kid, and he has a ton of people to see, and I am hoping to have some time away from family to just have me and him do some things together, its gonna be hard with my mom and step-dad who haven’t seen him since he was 3, but I will hopefully get at least 1 morning of just me and Ian on the beach and hopefully get some great pictures!

He “drew” me a scrapbook, its so friggin cute. He said its of the stuff in Hawaii. First page he wrote “I love u mommy”, hehe. He drew a pool, because the house we’re staying in has a pool, it has the ocean, and it has a pic of me and him eating hot dogs, not sure why hot-dogs, but its friggin cute. Also has a pic of me and him holding hands, and a sand castle that he said we will build together. On the back of the book, he wrote his name and the date he drew the pics, and he wrote “Diana is osam”. He’s determined to sound out words and write them himself instead of asking how to spell it, and so I didn’t know what “osam” was and I asked him and he said “its Awesome” so, yeah, I’m pretty awesome. 🙂

Mother’s day is coming and I totally forgot to get my mom in Hawaii something, takes about 5 days for a card to get there, let alone a package, so I think I might try to order her some flowers delivered to her house. 🙂 Dont know how to go about doing that, but I will look into it.

To try to lift my spirits a little, and get my mind off all the things looming in my head that need to be dealt with, here’s a pic of Ian and I, on his last day as a 5 year old, haha. Enjoy.

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Everyone be safe.

April 17, 2007

busy busy busy

Filed under: family,Ian,random — dianabananapancakes @ 1:04 pm

This weekend and yesterday have been BUSY! Whew!

Saturday was planned as an errand day. I had to go to the city to go shopping for supplies for Ian’s b-day party (invites, party favors, plates for the theme, etc). He FINALLY picked a theme by the way of Superman, lol. Anyway, so we were supposed to get that, I had to buy Ian’s birthday present because I wouldn’t have time during the week with the 2 jobs and the sports (2 games and 3 practices by Saturday)…plus my step-mom’s b-day was going to be on Monday (16th) so I had to get her something, plus I had to get snacks for Ian’s soccer team as every game one parent has to bring snacks, and it was my turn for the game on Monday (16th)….so I had a lot of shopping to do. So, I packed Ian up in the car and we stopped to get some “road trip” food and fill up gas and…..my car dies. I couldn’t even leave town. To top it off…it was raining. I called my step-mom to see if I could borrow her car, but she had to go to the other city to get her driver’s license renewed. I called my dad, but he had just taken his truck in to get the tail lights fixed. So, I called my only 2 friends who live in town….and one had his daughter for that weekend and he had to work later that day, and the other she had plans to leave town that evening and get her son’s hair cut….so, I finally gave up and went home.

My dad offered to take us on Sunday instead. So, Sunday we went. I’m glad dad offered to take us. He distracted Ian while I bought Ian’s birthday present. My dad also had to get something for the step-mom. So, anyway, we ended up spending 6 hours shopping on Sunday then stopped to eat and came home. Ugh! During shopping and dinner with dad, though, we talked about Hawaii, me, dad and Ian, and about the fun stuff we want to do, the things we should/could take Ian to, the things I did as a kid when dad was in the Marines and stationed in Hawaii, so it was great and I’m sooooo excited about Hawaii. At one store dad found these books “Hawii for Dummies” and bought one for him, for my uncle, for me and for an aunt who’s family is going, too, hehe. He said “this is your homework before we go to Hawaii” haha. It was great hanging with dad, just the 3 of us. Its been a while since we’ve done that.

I finally was getting ready to go to bed and I tried to call James…voicemail. Maybe 10 minutes later James called me back. We talked a good while, it was late and when I finally conceeded that I had to get to sleep, it was after 1 am, and I had to get up for work around 4:45 am, so he said he’d call me tomorrow if he could (Monday) and then we hung up and I finally fell asleep. whew. Long day.

Monday was a long, full day, too. I of course got up to work, took Ian to school, finished working, had to wrap step-mom’s birthday gifts from us and from my dad, got the snack bags ready for the kids on the soccer team, got Ian’s uniform ready, picked him up from school, I worked a tiny bit after that until time to get Ian ready for the game, took Ian to his game (rode with my parents), from the game took off to dinner for my step-mom’s birthday at a small Mexican place in town, from there went to dad’s house to open gifts and have cake, then from there came home in time to give Ian a bath, get him into bed and I worked till 10:30 pm. I was EXHAUSTED and went to bed, and James called when he got off work at 8 pm, which if you remember there is a 3 hour time difference, was 11 pm my time, lol. He apologized for keeping me up late the night before and said he’d keep tonight’s call short. He and I chatted a short bit…then he told me something that surprised me. He said that he wanted me to know that he appreciates me. I’ve been hanging in there when he’s been going through all this stuff and as he told me that he mentioned to his friend’s girlfriend..he has not been a very good boyfriend, and that he just wanted me to know that he does appreciate me. That was a good way to end the conversation on Monday.

Now I’m exhausted still. I sent Ian off to school and about an hour ago they called and said he was pretty much SCREAMING in class that his stomach hurt and he was crying, and that’s not Ian behavior. He was saying his stomach was hurting and he was very much in pain they said, so they wanted me to come pick him up. So, he’s now laying down in the living room, he’s saying he’s hungry but I’m not sure what to feed him, so I just gave him some toast and water to drink and he seems fine with that. He is not running around and goofing off, so I know he really doesn’t feel good. See, yet another reason why I think this at-home job has been worth the bit of struggle, I can still work (when I’m not BLOGGING, haha) even if Ian has to stay home. 🙂

Anyway, blah blah blah, that was long, but that’s what has happened since I last blogged on Friday.

Here are some pics and videos from Ian’s first soccer game of the season. They are the team in yellow, and Ian is number 5.

First a video of Ian, he is the one kicking when the video starts….

GRR irritated with youtube, the last I don’t know, 10 videos I’ve uploaded start out with the sound matching the video, but as the video continues, it doesn’t match up! ugh! So, anyway, enjoy the silliness anyway. bah!

Grannie’s gift from Ian and myself, he is right beside me right now and DEMANDING that I post a pic of it, lol, so here it is. It looks like just a dual photo frame, but you open the pics and inside there is a “message center” with cork boards and magnet/dry erase board. My step-mom hates clutter, so she likes things like this, functional and nice to look at. Those are Ian’s recent soccer team pics (well, from last season, they play 2 times a year) and his kindergarten school pics (first school pics, lol).
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